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im the one who has to die when its time for me to die, so let me live my life the way i want to :)

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

#thirteen

assalamualaikum. long time no meet mah blog pepal. how are you guys? hihi kinda busy now days wasting my time. urgh Actually im doing my sejarah paper 3 and im kinda boring sitting infront of my laptop and just reading the articles about tamadun. zzzzz lets talk about something else besides sejarah.

ive promise to myself that im going to study hard this year. im going to make it. but sudendly i always skip my addmath and chemst class. god :( i want to study but my friend keep pushing me to the negative side. what a bad luck of me got a friend liddat.

its okay. but then, im not blaming her for this. im weak. a very weak person. i can get along with everyone but i cant stop them from being 'them'. they're good friends but a very bad friends too. its okay to tell the truth here right? am i right? hehehehehehehehehe whatever hope sheeeeeeee donttt read this shittttt,

lol guys. you know wht? im getting fat now. aaaaa :( i ate everything that i want. live ones bro. tak kesah ah nak gemuk ke kurus. nak puaskan nafsu makan gua sampai gua dah takda nafsu makan. gua nak mintak byebye dulu k guys? k? k? alaaaaa dont be sad. i'll be here again as soon as ive finish my spm paper nxt year.

pray for me. 9A+ insyaAllah. Amin

Friday, June 8, 2012

#twelve

assalamualaikum dan selamat petang. Telah lama hilang perasaan cinta nan sayang ku terhadap si emm si A. Mungkin dulu susah bagi saya untuk cuba lupakan awak tapi kenyataannya saya boleh hidup tanpa awak. Saya nangis dulu sebab awak adalah sangatlah membuang masa. Ada pernah awak kisah tentang hati perasaan saya untuk sedetik? tidak kan? jadi tidak mengapalah untuk saya mencuba untuk membenci awak, mungkin. Mungkin dulu awak mencuba untuk menjaga hati perasaan saya tapi pada masa yang sama...... awak sangat menyakitkan hati. Jadi tidak rugilah kalau saya beredar dari hidup awak. beredar dari hidup awak bukanlah mustahil bagi saya. Mungkin awak perlu tahu dan ingat suatu perkara. saya rasa bodoh dan bodoh kerana sanggup menunggu awak tanpa awak menyayangi saya. cakap kasar perasaan aku macam babi.

you have to know that im happy without you and thats a pleasure. thankyou for not chasing me when im gone. thankyoou for giving fucking fake hopes for me and thankyou for treating me like a piece of shit. namaste

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

#eleven

hi, assalamualaikum. bangun dengan niat nak hapuskan account facebook buat kali yang ke 123456789 juta kali. tapi niat dibatalkan secara tiba-tiba setelah mengenang kembali sifat yang leka dek-zamanku. Disini,  nak luah. semua tentang masa lalu.

Sudah terlalu ramai golongan sempurna mendekati akan tetapi diri ini masih menyakiti. bukan nak buka pekong didada tapi untuk renungan bersama. saya berubah sekarang ni demi awak. Akhir-akhirni hanya awak yang muncul dalam hidup saya dan bagi orang lain itu mustahil....

awak, dulu. kawan-kawan saya siap bet saya lagi kalau saya setia. i wonder everyone want to hear some right? okay, let me tell you this:

one day, senior form five yang handsome, pandai dan digilai ramai lalu depan kelas and i was shocked. and  at that time i was lepaking with my friends in our friend's class. and i told them that "aku bet! kalau aku dapat that boy aku setia sampai bilabila" dan suara dengan keras mencelah "ha ha ha aku bagi seratus kalau kau setia" man! we'll see friends! told them. later on. wait! let just call that boy A. suddently A mula kenal aku. aku budak baru sekolah tu. A kenal aku. aku mula cuba cara yang menggoda untuk menarik hatinya. haha joke. then kita orang rapat tetapi hubungan kita orang sebagai kawan dirahsiakan. tiba-tiba, gossip katakan yang kami sedang hangat bercinta menjadi buah mulut orang sedangkan masa itu aku masih memegang status single.

Kita orang mula rapat dan rapat dan rapat sampai suatu hari A mengubah status single aku. aku gembira sangat sebab nak heboh dekat satu sekolah yang aku ada kekasih yang hotzzzz. k im dying. hehe. tapi, malangnya, aku tak setia. aku tak setia langsung dengan A sampailah suatu hari dia mintak putus dan aku okay. sekali lagi aku mungkir janji yang aku nak setia.

okay. habis cerita si A. Sebenarnya, tadi yaya on facebook and terbaca some comment from exs. they were so nice and i was wondering why i left them with no fucking reason? stupid me. but now, a boy come. he bring me more positive thinking. well, he got a dimple yaww! dont be jelous girls.

He was so sweet and damn sweet and damn i can take it take it no more. Btw! ive seen his mother. asdfghjkl asdfghjkl i went to his house and met his mother. hehe. his mothe told me every single things about him and i just call his mother umi. well, comel tak? hihi

ive blogged this because i want to tell you guys that he has changed me alot. and thanks sayang. youre the best things ive ever had and thankyou once again for every single things that you do to make me feel better every day. well, i love you.